I don't have many days that specifically have any strong feelings for or against. I don't get excited for Christmas or my birthday. I don't have anything against Valentines Day, its just another day. But I have a special disdain for Father's day. I don't like the day, and I don't like celebrating it.
I have a love hate relationship with my father. Our relationship is complicated, I'm sure a lot of people's relationships with their father is complicated. I think we get a long great. There is very few people that I can have as stimulating a conversation with, as the ones I have with my dad. But I also harbour a lot of bitterness as well. Bitterness towards things he's done to me, bitterness towards the way he's treated people around me, but most of all bitterness about the way things are right now. I probably have the power to change the situation too, but I just don't care to. I'm at peace with the circumstances, and I'm not willing to do more to fix them.
The thing is, most of the past few years I didn't do anything, and I didn't care. But this year with Octal joining the daddy ranks, I realized that I am surrounded by amazing fathers. And I should celebrate them, even if my own father doesn't deserve it. There are others who don't even know their fathers, or they don't even They are doing an amazing job, and their kids aren't old enough to let them know they are. But I see that they are, so I should tell them. So here goes. To Octal, Slinks, Knowledge, and all the other great fathers out there, I see what you are doing and I like it. Keep it up. And to my own dad, I love you.
He's really not as bad as this post makes it sound.
-J
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